This morning I went for my tune up.  Turns out, my doctor was able to tweak the pacemaker so that I am much more comfortable.  It was 5 times stronger than it is right now!  Yes, 5 times!  I guess that is why the left side of my stomach was jumping with every heartbeat.  The only thing is… I felt fine when I left and just now when I ate lunch I noticed that I am still feeling the fluttering in the pit of my stomach.  Most uncomfortable thing ever.  Seriously.  I eat and immediately feel like I am going to vom.com but … I really don’t have to.  So, now I must call the Electro doc again and probably trek up to the far away land that is 86th street again on Monday 

It is the strangest sensation getting the Kicker checked.  As the doctor sends impulses to each of your leads, you feel different parts of your heart speeding up and kicking and moving and then back down again —and you realize that this person has complete control over your heart right now.  It’s strange to say the least.  I was thinking it could be a good torture device if placed in the wrong hands.  That’s how I entertain myself at doctor’s visits…

So, I am uncomfortable again.  I just want to eat a big meal!!! Super annoying.  

I’ve gotten over yesterday’s news.  I can’t be so obsessed with trying to find the reason as to why this happened anymore.  Up until last night I have to admit, it was all I thought about.  It can consume me and that is not a good thing.  Instead, I will focus my energy on today and forward.  I think the worst has happened, it’s still very possible that this was a random virus that came in, wreaked havoc, and left super silent never to be detected. Who even knows when this all happened? The truth is we will probably never know.  What I do know is that I have this device and it is going to get the Ticker back into shape.  That’s good enough for me.

Happy Friday to everyone at work.  

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