longest cold. ever.  it’s crazy how long i’ve been sick with this cold for.  i’ve forgotten what it’s like to breathe normal through both nostrils. it’s quite annoying.

it’s sunday night and i am looking over the week ahead of me.  as i scan through my calendar, this month is looking so different than say, two months ago.  i have gotten to a point where i am seeing the docs way less frequently, which i couldn’t be more happy about. now the spaces are 3 months instead of 3 weeks or every other week.  although, my days are still jam packed with appointments of many kinds. healing is my fulll-time job!  now i just have more alternative healing style appoitntments and “detective work”.

let’s recap.  i am currently waiting on answers to a couple of tests that i took, tests that just any doctor won’t tell you about.  no, it took me forever and a pacemaker to find dr. Y who let me in on all of this knowledge:  now, with my aches and pains and cardiac condition, and stomach condition, i have been tested for lyme disease before.  probably like five times or more.  apparently the tests i was given (the lyme tests that any doc or hospital gives on the regs) is only 65% effective.   it’s only a screening test!  how very interesting that these could have been done in vain.  apparently there is a super special blood test out there that works hard core for lyme (especially if it has gone undetected for years), and so i took it about two weeks ago.  the results take 14 business days!   hence, why i haven’t posted about it until now because it is an understatement to say that i want to know the results NOW!  this lyme test was one of the many many reasons i broke down in the cab that day after dr Y: can you imagine?  all of this? all of these awful health problems due to a tick bite that went undetected years ago? it seems as if so many things can be avoided if we only had GOOD, CARING doctors who knew their stuff or were good enough to say “i don’t understand this, but let’s find you a doctor who can help you”.  that would have been amazing.  it’s like, i could have gone on forever just feeling awful and taking medicines that will eventually poison you!  it makes me so angry that there is so much information that we just couldn’t know.  ok, enough with my rant, back to the lyme test: i was always running around outdoors it is very possible.  and the link between lyme and my problems … well, there are just too many coincidences, it was so worth my time to go and get this test taken.  i’ve spent a lot of time reading about lyme and autoimmune disease since then as well.  all of this info makes me feel like my head will explode sometimes. we all know how desperate for answers i am… $1000 later (I’m not kidding, the blood test was $985 not covered by insurance), i wait, almost hoping it comes back positive just to get a damn answer!  then again, i don’t really know how i feel about it.   ugh, another thing that swims around in my head making me crazy crazy.

i am also waiting for other analysis’ that dr Y conducted. Stuff that i won’t get into here, but tests that will hopefully point us in the right direction to healing my stomach.  it’s been pretty good, actually.  no pain, but then again i haven’t had much of an appetite so i am not eating so much.

here’s to draining sinuses and a healthy week!