I’ve been particularly achy lately.  Espeically the past two days (this weather is my enemy).

In the spirit of the new year, I’ve made a decision to just accept the pain when it hits, and go on with my days.  It’s a huge mental exercise but I can do it!  I am just going to be “ok” with it, stop obsessing over why why why is his happening, and push through it to do normal things.  I am tired of being horizontal, tired of sitting on the couch, tired of always trying to figure out why?!  Of course, I won’t push it but I think I need this change.  It’s good.  I have so many things wrong at any given time I am beginning to just spiral into crazy mode.  It has to stop.

So, I am off to acupuncture.  I am going to walk there even though my legs feel like lead.  I am hoping the walk will somehow make me feel a bit better.  I know acupuncture will, it is so amazing for me…

This week and next we have tons of check ups at Columbia including a check up on the Ticker!  I am excited for it because I believe I will get good news.  I can feel my heart beating stronger and stronger. I talk to her every night and every morning.  She’s going to come back to 100%.  I know it.