for going on ten hours right now i have been dealing with another stomach attack.  the details are too gruesome to describe here, but this takes the cake for worst night ever.  i feel completely ill to the core. so sick.  i’ve spent most of the ten hours on the bathroom floor.  i cannot even think straight right now.  i don’t understand why this is happening.  and so close to the last one?

i took my “no-joke” super diesel painkiller shots to avoid the hopsital (a silver lining to all of this) —although, i have gained such a tolerance to them the shots weren’t doing much aside from adding to my nausea, making me cookoo bananas, and gave me relief from cramps for 45 minutes tops!  crazy.

i am trying to get some electrlytes into my body because i do NOT want to go to the hospital to get hydrated.  i am so traumatized by my hospital experiences here in my own city that i’d rather take the longer harder road to feeling better.

back to my setup on the couch:  vom bucket, smart water, flat coca cola, tissues…

i need this all to stop now.