A little follow up to the last post.

Everyone does it.  Everyone has different names for it (number two, dookie, poop, hershey squirts), but “it” is actually a HUGE deal for people with AutoImmune Disease.

Our (people with AutoImmune problems) bodies do not regulate themselves as they should therefore all of the body’s systems get whacked out.  When your body cannot get rid of toxins, you become more diseased.

A friend of mine brought my attention to the following website and when I read a specific part (below) it was the deciding factor to getting over my fears and going to get that colonic last week.

“If these wastes are not effectively removed, the body will be toxic (autointoxication or self poisoning).  There are four major eliminating routes in the body: 1) the bowel (defecation), 2) the bladder (urination), 3) the breath (respiration), and 4) the skin (perspiration).  Reading 5288-1 described a “breakage in coordinations between the eliminating channels of the body” whereby toxins were not being properly eliminated through all these channels.  Too many toxins were being eliminated through the skin with a great deal remaining in the body producing a wide range of symptoms such as headache, weakness, nausea, indigestion, cough, dizziness, blurred vision, and pressure in the ear drums.  According to Cayce, poor assimilations and glandular dysfunction contributed to the systemic autointoxication”

-From Edgar Cayce website

http://www.edgarcayce.org/health/database/health_resources/lupus.asp

I know, I am obsessed with healing myself.  Obsessed enough to put all of my “shit” out there on the internet.

Do you know we are actually suppsed to poop three times a day?! News to me.

A big part of the body’s regulation is eliminaing waste. I’ve been reading about colonics in relation to disease for a long time now and I have always been curious.  A lot of people on the quest to heal disease incorporate colonics into their routine because they stimulate the immue system and get rid of all that icky waste that a been hanging around too long.

Not gonna lie, I have been scared to try in the past. Not just for the obvious reasons (awkward!) but also because I thought it could trigger one of my ischemic colitis attacks a.k.a the worst pain I have ever experienced. But, since I’ve got my trusty Viagra now I’m fearless on the intestinal front. I packed one up in my pill box and went to get a colonic last week.  Bring. It. On.

Yes, it’s invasive (to say the least). It’s also intense and uncomfortable but the aftermath is bliss. I left feeling amazing. Not only did I feel lighter in my belly ( I swear I shed five pounds of waste back there) but I had this amazing clarity in my brain.  Like some brain fog had been lifted!  I walked home so happy and high.

It was such a cathartic experience.  My stomach has never felt so amazing (and those who follow this blog know that my stomach has major issues). No bloating , none of my usual pains. I felt…. Normal. Fine. Nothing to complain about for the first time in a long long time.  I have been eating great! 

My first meal afterward was equally as satisfying. My body ate it up.

Why did I tell this story?  Because it proved to me just how much our gut determines our health and state of mind. It truly reinforces my belief that I can find the way to curing my body through healthy diet and mind state.  I must be vigilant about both of these things considering the hand I have been dealt and if I am, I know I will get better.

I know we’ll get there very soon.

I truly believe that I will be able to get a stem cell treatment that will get my heart back to 100% function.  I don’t mind living with the scar tissue on my ticker, as long as we make way for a healthy, beating heart.

When I read things like this it gives me hope that it may be soon and possibly even in the States:

http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2009/04/090426175646.htm

I got a lot of emails and negative feedback from my last post, a picture of the Louise Hay book called “You Can Heal Your Life”.

I would like to clear some things up.  It doesn’t matter if you are sick or not, everyone is entitled to there own beliefs and what works for them.  That’s what makes us human. So thank you all for sharing.

After dealing with a chronic illness for almost ten years now (I just turned 27), I’ve tried many routes.  For some, Western Medicine is the Answer.  For others, it’s only alternative, natural healing where they want to stay away from medications .  I’ve found that taking the best from both worlds has been my own personal salvation and I continue to take whatever I can get that will make me feel good and whole again.

Regarding the book, I feel it is an important opinion to have out there.  I also think I liked it so much because I did not take it literally.  There is a list of illnesses in the back of the book followed by the negative patterns that Louis Hay associates with that particular disease and then of course, a thought pattern to bring about change.  I don’t think her intention was to tell all us “sick” people that it is our own fault.  I do believe that she brings to light an incredibly important fact: acceptance, and how to let it go.

Louise Hay has a powerful message that your future and your well being lies in your very own hands and yes, I ABSOLUTELY agree with that.  It is all about your outlook on life.  When I couldn’t walk myself to the bathroom or shower on my own a year and a half ago it was my very own mind that dug me out of a dark deep place which could have otherwise been my reality for a long time.

I found it to be a positive book and was quite surprised at the many angry reactions that were in my Inbox.  Interesting.

Of course, you get this “cheesy” feeling when the instructions are to look at yourself in the mirror and say affirmations out loud.  But you tweak it and do what works for you.  I love my crazy dance in the mornings to loosen my aching joints and get my heart going a little.  That’s my time of the day to really speak to my illness and tell it to peace out… “I am so over you, my body is back”.

PS…  to the person who said I am probably a “bored neo-hippie looking for answers to insignificant problems”  (ummmm what’s a neo-hippie):  Well, maybe you should read my blog before making judgements.  I do happen to have some experience in dealing with crisis and trauma.  After all I do have a metal box hanging out of my chest.

On that note peace and love to you all.

I’ve got a full day today.  Just finished yoga (I can MOVE my neck, shoulders and hips again)!  On my way to energy healing —when I leave there I feel like I am walking on clouds.  Very hard to explain in words. 

At my energy healer we try all kinds of different techniques (I am lucky enough to have found a healer who is really knowledgable in many different areas).  Sometimes we use tuning forks, sometimes we just chat for an hour or so.  Sometimes we use oils that she layers according to a system that gets energy flowing through your spine again.  Today I think we are doing the oil therapy.  I lie on my stomach and she massages different oils into my back methodically.  It smells great and it is super relaxing.

My hopes are that after today I will feel a push of energy.  Lately I have been so exhausted.  I just cannot seem to shake the sleepiness away.  I am drained and feeling faint a lot.  Actually, yesterday I had a scare but that’s an entirely different post.

Off to work…

It’s finally spring in NYC… Finally!

So, the body aches have subsided for the day and I am feeling OK.  I am very sleepy —-have been for the entire week.  My acupuncturist says it’s my body finally trying to relax after all it has been through over the past year and a half.  She says I should just let it be and sleep as much as I need to.  I can get down with that.

One thing is bothering me:  I have a strange headache.  It is in my left temple and it is so so so sore I cannot even touch around my left eye nevermind the left side of my forehead. It started yesterday and has not changed at all.  I took tylenol and nothing!  Still there. It may just be a sinus or allergy thing although I cannot help but to automatically freak out when something new happens.  It is a negative reaction, sure… but can you blame me?

It’s so hard to NOT be nervous about anything that goes on with my body.  There’s just been so much messed up stuff that’s gone on I have to work really hard on keeping my mind in a good place.  It’s so important.

At least the weather is cooperating today.  That helps a lot.

Happy Friday!

Love L

http://lupus.webmd.com/news/20090413/birth-control-pills-may-raise-lupus-risk?src=RSS_PUBLIC

Posting this because it is super important to me.  Hormones play a huge role in AutoImmune Disease and most women may not know they have one until they take birth control pills and it triggers their condition!

I absolutely believe that the pill contributed to my body turning on itself around the time the scarring on my heart was starting (I know approximately when because it is when I started fainting all over Manhattan).  Taking those pills was a big mistake and I can never be on them again.

I hope one day we can have some sort of screening process for women to see if they have an AI disease before we subject ourselves to seemingly harmless things (like the Pill) that could bring about major major health problems.  Now that I am educated on the topic I cringe at the thought of messing around with my hormones.  Ugh.

Feel awful today.  What is WITH the weather?

I woke up, and forced my body out of bed because Tuesday morning is Yoga.  Yoga makes me feel so so so much better usually so I didn’t mind.  I couldn’t do much since my muscles were aching terribly.  Then I had to go back to bed!  I could not do anything.  After a slow yoga session of mostly breathing excercises I couldn’t function. Yikes.

I’ve been sleepy / mostly horizontal today and I could go to bed right now for the night…

I feel so Blaaaaaahhhh