Feeling pretty awful today so I just took my blood pressure.  80/59.  That is LOW, bad low.  It’s stand up and get white spots and shake low.  I am confused because I didn’t even take my heart medicine this morning which actually lowers my blood pressure.  I usually don’t take it if I am feeling especially weak.

The other thing that is bothering me is my pulse… it’s high and I am just lying around.  Why? This is the type of stuff, coupled with my awful chest discomfort and fatigue, that brings me right back to the scary place.  I am so tense and worried right now.  I find it hard to sit still.  My brain goes in to immediate overload “what if’s” flying all around.  It sucks.

Trying to stay calm and breathe.  Deep down I know everything is ok, I am feeling healthy(er) these days, I’m so passed the scary times… right?