I know in some ways I am getting better. Little by little.  I believe my illness is regressing.  I’ll have to spend some time repairing the disaster area it left behind after it ravaged my body but I’m up for the task.

Whatever I have to do to fix these things, especially my heart, I will do.  Every ounce of me is willing to fix it all and move on to feeling healthy.  To living my life.

I always think of my body when I listen to this song.  It sounds silly but I picture this one a song my body would sing if it could.

Good times for a change
See, the luck I’ve had
Can make a good man
Turn bad

So please please please
Let me, let me, let me
Let me get what I want
This time

Haven’t had a dream in a long time
See, the life I’ve had
Can make a good man bad

So for once in my life
Let me get what I want
Lord knows, it would be the first time
Lord knows, it would be the first time

-The Smiths