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How do I deal with Chronic Pain?

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Had to cancel acupuncture today.  I usually drag myself there regardless of how I feel because my body responds so positively to each treatment.  I have to be in a lot of pain to cancel last minute, wish I didn’t have to…

Now, to take a pill or to not take a pill and just lie here?  Major decision.

I have many coping mechanisms I use for pain.  I even see a psychiatrist that specializes in pain management for some time now… we work on things I can do instead of taking pain meds or sleep meds.   I’ve equipped myself with many tools that just don’t seem to be working this time around.  I can’t help but wonder why so much pain?  And why now?

 

 

My own worst enemy sometimes

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I haven’t been feeling well.  There is definitely a flare up going on.  Unspecific Inflammation as the docs call it.  It means I have inflammation in my body, they aren’t sure why or where, and it makes everything painful.  The rain exacerbates it to boot.

When it’s really bad I consider going back on the ROIDS but then I remember how off-the-rails-insane I was on those meds and I reel it back in.  I just have to deal.

All I want is comfort, relaxation.  I found it in blueberry pancakes today.  I do not eat much sugar anymore but I just wanted something familiar and warm.  Something that reminded me of being a kid, feeling great with lots of energy.

Now I sit here blaming myself for my pain and feeling incredibly guilty for eating sugar.  Sugar directly causes inflammation.  I know this.  So why do I still go for it?

My head is so messed up from everything.  I enjoyed them going down but the guilt is too much to sit with.  This is crazy right?  Doesn’t make sense.  But it’s my life right now.

Fluffy blueberry pancakes with maple butter

Fluffy blueberry pancakes with maple butter